I'm not fat but I feel fat?

Im 5'8.5 and probably like 130. I wear an XS and size 25 in jeans. Ive had eating issues and bad body image in the past..I just feel so fat every single day and I think I need to lose weight. I used to weigh 118 at the same height a few months ago and now i just feel huge. I don't know if I should lose weight right now..wouldn't it be better to lose weight and be happy with myself than feeling fat everyday?